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Yes, hello again, some venting. There is really nothing to live for in my life. I would kill myself if it wasn’t for the fact that I am literally 14 and I might get something good to do in a couple of years when I am older, although I doubt it because, well, I am a failure and a disappointment. I don’t know what to do any more. I am sad and lonely and bored. Everyone has so many friends and I would like to have friends too, even though I don’t truly want or need friends, I would just like to know how it feels to have so many people like me. There are some people at school who talk to me regularly, but I don’t like them. I don’t believe they truly like me either. They treat me really badly even though we are supposedly friends. I hate school so much because of these things. I am constantly bullied and harassed. I sneak my phone into school so I can listen to music and talk to my boyfriend, but he won’t even talk to me that much; it seems there is always something better than me.

So yes, there you go, you’ll never be any better and you’ll never be special to anyone, ever.

Fan fics

so, i like writting. i write a lot when im bored, it also helps to expand my vocabulary, fix my grammar, etc. its fun. and i started writting my own fan fics, some about my own fandoms and such. problem is im a bit slow and i struggle to find a way to phrase them, which is real shitty cause well, i wanna write and i cant.

i wish it was an easier fix cause it feels rather humilliating, im 14 years old, english is not my first language but im very good at it and i wanna be better, and the only way i know i would be able to practice it is writting and i struggle to do such..

stupid bs